Hello, I'm Saz

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I am a musician and small business owner living in Albany, WA. 

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My history in music started when I was a kid learning classical piano and playing guitar. I developed an interest in contemporary music as a teenager before discovering the yidaki or didgeridoo in my early 20s.

I have since travelled all over the region with my yidaki and played music professionally for several years before working at Open Access Youth Arts Studio, providing arts based programs for “At-Risk” Youth. My roles expanded over the years and eventuated in becoming the Art Studio Coordinator as well as the music facilitator in Albany. These rolls as well as working in Denmark as a Youth Worker gave me valuable experience in Youth Mental Health Support and workshop facilitation.

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My life journey then then took me to become an award winning tradesman and successful small business owner, but music and the Didges vibrational breathing connection to heartfulness continued to be an important part of my life. I have developed a true appreciation for the practice of breathing based wellness and the importance of pairing it with something you are inspired by. Over many years this ideology evolved into a calling to develop a program to share the basic benefits of sound and breathing based presence with my community.

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" The deeper the mud, the taller the gum" - Saz Lockyer.

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Saz Lockyer and My Story

“Healed People Heal”

 

My real name is Sarid James Lockyer:

Sarid is an ancient Hebrew name meaning Survivor.

It is no accident that I was given this name.

 

When I was born, my parents were married to different people.

My biological Father offered to pay to have the pregnancy terminated but my Mother

wanted to keep me, and so I survived my first trial.

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As a “bastard child” I began life without a Dad, living with my Mother after her first marriage broke down. She eventually moved towns and found love and was re-married when I was 4.

My Stepfather took me in kindly. My Mother had a second child, my younger half sister and I remember feeling connected to a family living in Albany. A short time later my mother became a target and was stalked and pursued by an abusive male who was manipulative and forced the end of her marriage to my stepfather. Through this ordeal my sister and I were physically and mentally abused by my mother’s new partner. My stepfather would find bruises on my younger sister and he tried to save us. He resorted to the Family Court and at the age of 8 my experience was one of fear and unfairness as the case was thrown out based on photographic evidence with probable doubt. My stepfather now devastated, was a broken man. Without a sense of control, He decided to leave everything behind and start a new life in Japan. I would have too if I could.

 

The mental abuse did not stop however and over the years my mother tried to escape her attacker by leaving town in the night or making planned escapes but the abuser always stalked her down and eventually over time he wore her down and through pity she eventually decided to accept his marriage proposal. I was 10 years old. 

This broke me inside. I became enraged and aggressive. I refused to forgive my mother for her choices even though they weren’t always hers. I began to spiral into self-destruction and abusive behaviour. I blamed myself and turned to drugs and alcohol at a very young age. I lost care for myself and my loved ones. Everything unravelled.

Constantly running away and barley passing school I needed to escape my life. I moved to a Boarding Agricultural College in Denmark WA in year 11. Things improved but I could not stop my drug and alcohol dependents. Eventually in Year 12 I was found to be in possession of Marijuana with intent to supply. I was expelled and charged by the police. I voluntarily attended Holyoke drug Rehabilitation Centre and took some steps to improve my life. I repeated school the following year and while my mother had escaped our abuser and remarried a fourth time there was nothing left for me to feel connected to, so at 19 I moved to Albany and escaped the heavy drug scene I was circling drain with in Perth.

 

I returned to Albany and soon after it brought me my first child at the age of 21. With no real Fathering or partner experience to draw on I quicky found myself as a weekend Dad struggling not to repeat my own past. My first Child was a blessing and helped me to find purpose in my life. He gave me perspective and a sense of dependency that helped me settle down. I remarried and had another child before repeating my failings and getting divorced a year later. Becoming a weekend dad for the second time and this time to two Boys from 2 different Mothers was hard on my self-respect.

This Broke me again…I needed to find a way to heal so I could be the Father that I always wanted present in my life…

 

This is when I found the healing energy of Music, particularly in the form of Didgeridoo. The ancient breathing technique of circular breathing and the sound of the vibration offered me peace from my troubled mind. I became addicted and played almost every night. I found that 10 minutes of Didge felt like 1 hour of meditation. As I breathed through the instrument I found stillness, Presence, and my true self. I was able to reflect on my past as just past, behind me now only leaving experience. I was ready to become  present for myself and my children.

 

I found I could work through problems by breathing through them and I discovered helpful techniques and the mighty truth. The truth that I am enough, I have done enough, and I am doing enough. Self-Love and my past became a path to gratitude and as I healed through this process it allowed me to look outward. I could suddenly see that in fact I now have enough inner strength to help others. I can teach this healing joy that I found in my Music and my Life.

 

I began performing and found work as a Music Facilitator for Open Access, an “at risk” Youth Art studio. I grew to become the Co-Ordinator and through music and art I was able to help my community. I eventually moved on to study a trade and became a professional Painter. Painting allowed me to think about how I can best help others. Creative Calm Australia and its programs was born. I truly believe I have something to offer you and the world. Let me show you what I’ve learned. Breath with me. Heal so you can Heal others too.